It's really something, you know, how people can just pull the wool over your eyes and make you feel like you're not doing enough, despite all my efforts to step up. My boss, well, let's just say they've got a knack for twisting things around and making me look like an underperforming employee in front of my manager. And my manager? They didn't even bring up the fact that I'd been trying to get their approval for a visit to the island a few weeks back.

The kicker is, my boss was the one who told me I couldn't go anywhere because of the IGMH project. But now, they're the same ones calling me unproductive and indirectly implying I'm lazy, all while redefining my job description

I had to sit there and listen to my boss criticizing me, all the while avoiding eye contact with me. Can you believe the nerve? Now I'm starting to doubt my own abilities, and I'm wondering if I'm really not as proactive as I thought. From where I stand, I've been giving it my all to be proactive, but these folks act like they're on a whole different level, conveniently forgetting all our previous discussions.

When I first brought up the idea of the visit, my boss questioned its importance, saying the island wasn't a big deal. But now, they've completely changed the story, making it seem like I've never been proactive or committed to my job. It's frustrating because it's not a choice I made; it's a perception they've created.

Well, maybe I've been a bit too laid-back in general, haha. But it's seriously unfair to accuse me of being unproductive. Come on, give me some credit. Anyway, what can I do? I'm a bit of a pushover when it comes to this job, and I feel like I have to say yes all the time. There's not much room for being sensitive and emotional, which, I admit, tends to be my default mode. I've got this urge to speak up and defend myself, but I guess there's no point. After all, I'm just a regular employee.

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