It's been 3 months since I moved here to Maldives. I undergo quarantine for 14 days at Hulhumale island. first, it was surreal and mixed emotions. like I'm still questioning my decision and this whole new journey. did I regret it? and I know to myself that there's no turning back when the day I step out my foot to this unknown place.

after the quarantine. my homesickness struck me so hard, I didn't feel this loneliness when I'm in Singapore at all. looking back on my life there, I never felt homeless. yes, I do feel empty there because I want so many things to happen to my life, I just felt stuck in some points but nevertheless, I'm happy and felt at home in Singapore, that emptiness pushes me to pursed this Maldives.

setting my mind about this journey ahead of time didn't do anything to prepare me for the reality of just being here. what I set to my mind was everything here isn't the same as Singapore. the way of how to live here was way too far from the city that I grow in. food, the streets, the people, and the ambiance are way too different from the place that I love.

I was so sad for the first few weeks and until now (I guess). there are no familiar faces and places that I can rely on.  this is not my safe place to be lost to as well. 

I asked myself so many times what should I do? how can I overcome this feeling... but the end of the day I just realized that all of these things just happened for reason. I just have to trust God for this process and no matter what happens just go with the flow

this is just a new phase of my life that I need to conquer and be better in all aspects. because hardship, sadness, and emptiness are just factors on can I hone my true potential