I spent a week immersed in study, giving my best effort to review notes and engage in Q&A sessions with ChatGPT. Tracking the topics covered, it seems like I'm making progress, which is encouraging. Recently, I confirmed my exam date for Feb 22 at 12 noon in Pearson Vue Manila. However, the upcoming exam is stirring a mix of nervousness and anxiety. Despite these feelings, I'm trying to remain calm, especially with a few days of studying ahead before I return to work on Friday, Dec 8. It's frustrating that my company cut short my leave for an upcoming training with Azard on the island. I find it unethical, questioning why this training couldn't wait until my return.

Contemplating my situation, I am seriously considering filing my resignation right after my leave next year. I’m claiming that I will have my US License upon my return to the Maldives. The S-Monovette fiasco has made me question my connection with the company, and I feel compelled to take responsibility for my career path. It's time to acknowledge that I might not truly belong here and consider what's right for my future. Despite the uncertainties, I am genuinely happy for the company to find someone better suited for my position. The decision ahead may be challenging, but I hope to make the right choices, paving the way for my US license journey.

I'm exhausted, feeling anxious, and constantly grappling with challenges. It's tough to focus on what I should be doing and what I shouldn't. Well, that's just the way it goes, right?

Despite everything, I'm trying to find moments of enjoyment in this journey. The NCLEX exam has taught me a lot about myself. Juggling it alongside work has highlighted the importance of flexibility and self-forgiveness. There are times when I can't get everything done, and failing the first time was a painful experience with a lot of lingering questions in my mind. However, giving up isn't in my nature; I've built up enough resilience to keep pushing forward.

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