I'm feeling incredibly lost right now.

The thought of retaking the exam is making me increasingly anxious. this failure has really taken a toll on my mental well-being. Instead of focusing on my studies like I should be, I find myself procrastinating in my room, indulging in distractions like watching porn, K-dramas, and scrolling through social media, wasting precious time.

Just a moment ago, I attempted to start studying by watching some videos from my online review center, but I was immediately overwhelmed with fear and anxiety, gripping my chest tightly. Generally, I try not to dwell on my past failure, but sometimes these feelings come rushing back, leaving me feeling utterly helpless.

I feel like I want to cry, but the tears won't come. It's like something is constricting inside me, begging to be released. I'm terrified and feeling completely powerless.

I'm holding up, but it's more of a superficial "okay." There are moments like these when all the thoughts and emotions I've been suppressing come rushing back, overwhelming me with a whirlwind of feelings I've been trying to avoid. It's like an inevitable part of being human – we all have to confront these emotions eventually, and there's no escaping it.

I just want to let it all out and cry.

Labels: feelings, thoughts