I want nothing more than to make progress and get back into the swing of things, but at the same time, I'm grappling with this intense laziness that's making it hard to even take the first step. It's like this vicious cycle where I put in effort, but it feels like it's all for nothing because I keep coming up short. It's disheartening and makes it even harder to muster up the energy to try again.

I've got a lot on my mind lately, and seeing some of my friends out there enjoying life, I can't help but feel a twinge of envy and jealousy. I know they work hard and have their own struggles, especially since some of them are close to me, but still, I find myself longing for that kind of happiness and ease. I've even considered trying my luck with E-Lotto back home, thinking it might be a shot at escaping poverty and securing a better future for both myself and my mom. Oh well at least I’m hopefuls for better days hehe

Right now, I'm definitely in a tough spot, dealing with negativity and challenges, but I'm doing my best to pull myself together and figure out how to move forward.

Forget the past and the future, instead I should be in the present. I’m hoping one day all my stars will align for me