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Friday, December 29, 2023

"Threads of Sanity at Kudahuvadhoo, Dhaalu Atoll Posted at December 29, 2023 0 comments (+)

made my way back to Male today. So, Kudahuvadhoo in Dhaalu Atoll? Pretty quiet and kind of gloomy vibe, you know? Supposed to be all about studying, but man, these past few days hit me hard, and I'm knee-deep in procrastination. Like, why am I doing this to myself, especially with exams looming? I tried to go through a few notes, but it doesn't feel like proper studying, you feel me? And there's this mountain of notes I need to tackle again and again – overwhelming much?

Despite my laziness, I managed to wander around the island. Feeling the sea breeze, tasting that salty air, and catching that unique sea smell – it was a mix of relaxation and a bit of a kick, you know? The sounds of the sea and the stunning view of the vast ocean were a welcome break. I was all set to do some training for the nurses for the past days, but guess what? Overslept and missed the early blood collection visit today. Major guilt trip because that's the main thing on my to-do list here, and I blew it. But hey, I'm just so mentally and physically drained.

and there's this other guilt I'm carrying – my exercise routine is on the rocks. Can't even manage indoor push-ups anymore. Feeling regretful and exhausted on that front too. That's Life, huh?

can't complain too much, though. Met some wonderful people at the hospital. After 3 years, got invited to a beach picnic for the first time, and it genuinely made me happy. Honestly, whether they like me or not isn't a big deal because I usually prefer my own company. Socializing isn't really my thing, but with this job, no choice but to dive into it. Still, that picnic? Total happiness 😊

It happened yesterday, and it was a full moon night. Seeing the moon on a gloomy, cloudy night got me all sentimental. Last full moon of the year, and it hit me right in the feels. Reflecting on everything from this year made me tear up. Even though I can't compare my struggles to what others go through, maybe mine is just a tiny part of the mishaps in life, but it's my own journey. I've been hanging by a thread of sanity throughout the year, dealing with secret battles. Should I pat myself on the back for managing to be the best version of myself, despite teetering on the edge of my sanity all year? I think so.

Labels: island, maldives, thoughts, work