One week into the new year, and its official life is in full swing, moving forward without pause.

I had a calm week, and it was nice not having work pressure because my bosses were away. I had time to study, though I got a bit sidetracked by watching Korean dramas and Twilight Saga last night. I've been tired lately, and my sleep schedule is messed up from both studying and being in a rabbit hole of my late-night entertainment. And now Mr. Habeeb has returned to Male. I'm attempting to shake off the negative vibe I sense from him, genuinely trying. LOL, but his presence somehow affects my mood. What to do..

The other day was Kiel's birthday, and he's such an adorable and cheeky boy. I really wish I could celebrate these moments with my family in Manila. It makes me a bit sentimental thinking about the things I miss, but that's life.

Lately, I've been feeling lucky because I can play the lottery online in the Philippines. It brings me joy to have the chance to try my luck. Hahaha! I've been manifesting a comfortable life— not necessarily crazy rich, but just enough to be comfortable and secure with my family. What a life!

Things are pretty crazy right now. I'm trying to convince myself to chill out and just go with the flow because my exam is just around the corner. It's a nerve-wracking time for me, but I'm doing my best to handle the stress and actually enjoy the whole process. This time, I've decided to let go and trust in a higher power. I just want to feel free and be ready for the exam, even though just thinking about it makes me super anxious.

As of now, Abby just received the results of her exam the other day, and unfortunately, she didn't pass. I genuinely feel sorry for her, and it's making me reflect on the fact that I never shared with her that I also took the exam and failed too. Before she took her test, I couldn't help but feel a twinge of envy, wishing I could pass like her, but here I am gearing up for my second attempt.

I need to be honest with myself about these feelings, especially when it comes to Abby; she deserves my support. I'm sincerely praying for her success, and this time around, I'm determined to pass my exam. I'm committed to helping Abby in any way I can for her next attempt, I can’t share my exact plan to her but definitely will help and told her everything later on.  As much as possible I just want to be low profile when it comes to this.

Lately, there's been quite a bit going on, especially with Vans. It's been a challenging start to the year for her, but it might serve as an opportunity for some self-reflection. Vans can be stubborn and a bit selfish; it's not entirely her fault, but the situation in her life is becoming more complicated. I hope she manages to sort everything out.

I'm hoping Vans will eventually settle what she owes me. Ragesh and Azard haven't paid up, and I don't think Saminda paid me correctly either. This year, I'm determined to be more careful with my finances. But, figuring out how to bring up the 30k Vans owes me feels challenging. I'm worried it might create a misunderstanding and strain our friendship. fter hearing about how she supported Merwin financially, I had second thoughts – wondering why she did that and feeling that the time she asked for help, it was for Merwin instead. I want to bring it up with her, but I'm scared she might take it negatively. In the future, I don't want money to be involved when it comes to friendship. I hope we can settle this and have the chance to talk about it. It's just so complicated.

Labels: friendship, life, thoughts