i wanna share some of my experiences this first month of 2014. sort of happenings that makes me feel more better, well although feeling of dissapointment is always there but i know i can get throught with it.

now my weekeends is gonna be exciting than ever, now im been volunteer in PGH (Philippine General Hospital)  as ER nurse. that's sound legit and exciting right? :) i've been dreaming to practice my profession than sitting here in office talking all day as receptionist, well the reality tap me at my back and reminds me that i badly needed to earn money. hehe very much thankful because God is Always there to guide me and he didnt let me to feel that im wretched.

back on my PGH experienced, my first 2 days (weekends) that was so indeed fulfilling on my part. hehe i missed those things like being "TOXIC" to my loved profession is real things that i know that would complete me. (arte lang hehe) but seriously i really miss this. it's been a while actually since then, i've never experienced this kind of opportunity. and looking forward for more weekends in ER, for sure i will learn a lot.

last sunday, one of my bestfriend invite me to join her to apply and that application was forwarded to her from one of her colleagues in PGH. and I'm clue less about it, until i found it that application is about calls, sort of taking calls like BPO company, --

 

"on call Nurse" literally that we're talking those patients on the phone as ER nurse ( Triage ) and 

clients are coming from the US and some of the basic requirements are we need to be Good in English (must fluent) and experienced as ER nurse. first my worries - i'm not that good ni speaking english nor to understand them well . haha that's so embarrassing! when the old lady (interviewer) start to stare and asked me about my background. my entired body and my internal organ start to cramp and shakes invountarily :( i'm so nervous to talked to her than talking to my applicants here in rec center :( and now im asking my self WHY?? -_- and i know she's might thinking that im not even qualified to be part of their company. -_- And she asked me what i'm making in my current job and i answered her for particular amount. and i know what she thinking ... and she assessed me for what i'm getting for my job, she also emphasized that im just only worth for that certain amount, and makes me think and realized that i'm not worth 50k for that position. so make sense! i know she want me to improved and realized that i need to be good enough to be worthy. 50k is a big difference for what i get now. i felt awkward and uneasy, things should'nt be like this and even asked my self that do i deserved this :( i can't help it to think about it. i know! maybe she want to help me to improve my self and even tend to think about it. a wake up call for me.

 

anyway. that experience is just a call for me to be better more. so i don't need to feel upset :)

 

 

whats on my Notes? :)

 

Me time with bestfriends :)

 

 

Traders Hotel : overlooking manila with gerlyn during Interview :)

finally! got the result for my application in PHRN post. well as i expected, i didn't pass the interview from the project. "expect the worst" well. feeling disappointed in some point. about my teammates, all their efforts and encouragement for me. and they're all happy and excited about this opportunity for me. well. it seems, that's wasn't meant for me. nah! this is just a test for me and makes me more determined about every single challenge.

nakakahiya lang kay ms. ai, jinky, zen, and ms. ana - yung effort nila yung concerned sila sa application ko. yung sila pa yung nag eencourage sa akin na ma-prepare ako para sa interview~ diba ang sweet lang :( yung sila pa yung mas naniniwalang kakayanin ko yung post. every now and then kinakamusta ako ni ms. zen para sa interview ko. yung pag tawag ni ms. ai para sa late interview ko. pag mamadali ni ms. jinky para sa application ko at yung pag mock interview ni ms.ana para mas prepared ako sa interview. #luckyhere

sort of disappointment on my part. since, this could be a break for me. chance and opportunity for new career. i asked myself why i didn't make it. =_= hehe and what do i expect about the interview questions. tskk! and i've never expected  that he's going to ask me about the my clinical experienced. and that's a shocked on my part -_- i wasn't prepared O_O and i'm collecting myself for an answers like an idiot hahaha. kasi naman -_- may pag tatanong na out of nowhere TT_TT ~ it's been 2years last i know my course. kaya gusto ko mag duty na rin sa hospital pala ma refresh ako. - not being a pessimist about the result but preparing myself for the worse thing. you know acceptance hehe let's move on thou.

"masama ang loob"? but actually not more on nahihiya lang :) my good attitude is saying that is OKAY maybe trying it again or do the other way around. pang NURSE pala talaga ako. kahit di ko nasagot ng matino yung mga clinical question ng masungit na interviewer. haha or either pang abroad talaga ako. well see soon :)

well this not for me. so better off to moved on and plan for PLAN B and be ready for the back up plans :) by the end of the day. this is just a sort of test and faith. might as well my FATE. i dont know, what will be the next things would happen for me =) well still hoping and waiting for blessing. i'm not lucky for the past days, for sure there's a great chance for me soon. and i believed it.

im still happy although i didn't make it. you know! there's a chance to know the persons who really care about me. those people who i didn't ask for help but willing to extend their hands for me. thank you guys! kahit di nyo nababasa to. but i'm really grateful and thankful for your love and care. my whole teammates and friends. sheet! teary eyes ako haha joke. but deep inside and from the bottom of my heart. thank you. appreciated much.

same chair at 17 floor - the interview was done on that chair -_- for the record di sya comfortable upuan haha

upon waiting~ nakuha ko pa mag selfie - almost 1hrs ako nag hintay for interview -_-  #halosmamatayakosakaba

thank you ace for making me easy and relax. and thank you for the support ~ di mo ako iniwan :) #feelinghappyandlucky  

dinner before the interview - di ko man lang na enjoy yung treat ni ace sa sobrang kaba T_T 

thank you guys! and carolene sa pag sama at pag hihintay sa akin :) at kay ernest na may ibang agenda O_O