i wanna share some of my experiences this first month of 2014. sort of happenings that makes me feel more better, well although feeling of dissapointment is always there but i know i can get throught with it.

now my weekeends is gonna be exciting than ever, now im been volunteer in PGH (Philippine General Hospital)  as ER nurse. that's sound legit and exciting right? :) i've been dreaming to practice my profession than sitting here in office talking all day as receptionist, well the reality tap me at my back and reminds me that i badly needed to earn money. hehe very much thankful because God is Always there to guide me and he didnt let me to feel that im wretched.

back on my PGH experienced, my first 2 days (weekends) that was so indeed fulfilling on my part. hehe i missed those things like being "TOXIC" to my loved profession is real things that i know that would complete me. (arte lang hehe) but seriously i really miss this. it's been a while actually since then, i've never experienced this kind of opportunity. and looking forward for more weekends in ER, for sure i will learn a lot.

last sunday, one of my bestfriend invite me to join her to apply and that application was forwarded to her from one of her colleagues in PGH. and I'm clue less about it, until i found it that application is about calls, sort of taking calls like BPO company, --

 

"on call Nurse" literally that we're talking those patients on the phone as ER nurse ( Triage ) and 

clients are coming from the US and some of the basic requirements are we need to be Good in English (must fluent) and experienced as ER nurse. first my worries - i'm not that good ni speaking english nor to understand them well . haha that's so embarrassing! when the old lady (interviewer) start to stare and asked me about my background. my entired body and my internal organ start to cramp and shakes invountarily :( i'm so nervous to talked to her than talking to my applicants here in rec center :( and now im asking my self WHY?? -_- and i know she's might thinking that im not even qualified to be part of their company. -_- And she asked me what i'm making in my current job and i answered her for particular amount. and i know what she thinking ... and she assessed me for what i'm getting for my job, she also emphasized that im just only worth for that certain amount, and makes me think and realized that i'm not worth 50k for that position. so make sense! i know she want me to improved and realized that i need to be good enough to be worthy. 50k is a big difference for what i get now. i felt awkward and uneasy, things should'nt be like this and even asked my self that do i deserved this :( i can't help it to think about it. i know! maybe she want to help me to improve my self and even tend to think about it. a wake up call for me.

 

anyway. that experience is just a call for me to be better more. so i don't need to feel upset :)

 

 

whats on my Notes? :)

 

Me time with bestfriends :)

 

 

Traders Hotel : overlooking manila with gerlyn during Interview :)

finally! got the result for my application in PHRN post. well as i expected, i didn't pass the interview from the project. "expect the worst" well. feeling disappointed in some point. about my teammates, all their efforts and encouragement for me. and they're all happy and excited about this opportunity for me. well. it seems, that's wasn't meant for me. nah! this is just a test for me and makes me more determined about every single challenge.

nakakahiya lang kay ms. ai, jinky, zen, and ms. ana - yung effort nila yung concerned sila sa application ko. yung sila pa yung nag eencourage sa akin na ma-prepare ako para sa interview~ diba ang sweet lang :( yung sila pa yung mas naniniwalang kakayanin ko yung post. every now and then kinakamusta ako ni ms. zen para sa interview ko. yung pag tawag ni ms. ai para sa late interview ko. pag mamadali ni ms. jinky para sa application ko at yung pag mock interview ni ms.ana para mas prepared ako sa interview. #luckyhere

sort of disappointment on my part. since, this could be a break for me. chance and opportunity for new career. i asked myself why i didn't make it. =_= hehe and what do i expect about the interview questions. tskk! and i've never expected  that he's going to ask me about the my clinical experienced. and that's a shocked on my part -_- i wasn't prepared O_O and i'm collecting myself for an answers like an idiot hahaha. kasi naman -_- may pag tatanong na out of nowhere TT_TT ~ it's been 2years last i know my course. kaya gusto ko mag duty na rin sa hospital pala ma refresh ako. - not being a pessimist about the result but preparing myself for the worse thing. you know acceptance hehe let's move on thou.

"masama ang loob"? but actually not more on nahihiya lang :) my good attitude is saying that is OKAY maybe trying it again or do the other way around. pang NURSE pala talaga ako. kahit di ko nasagot ng matino yung mga clinical question ng masungit na interviewer. haha or either pang abroad talaga ako. well see soon :)

well this not for me. so better off to moved on and plan for PLAN B and be ready for the back up plans :) by the end of the day. this is just a sort of test and faith. might as well my FATE. i dont know, what will be the next things would happen for me =) well still hoping and waiting for blessing. i'm not lucky for the past days, for sure there's a great chance for me soon. and i believed it.

im still happy although i didn't make it. you know! there's a chance to know the persons who really care about me. those people who i didn't ask for help but willing to extend their hands for me. thank you guys! kahit di nyo nababasa to. but i'm really grateful and thankful for your love and care. my whole teammates and friends. sheet! teary eyes ako haha joke. but deep inside and from the bottom of my heart. thank you. appreciated much.

same chair at 17 floor - the interview was done on that chair -_- for the record di sya comfortable upuan haha

upon waiting~ nakuha ko pa mag selfie - almost 1hrs ako nag hintay for interview -_-  #halosmamatayakosakaba

thank you ace for making me easy and relax. and thank you for the support ~ di mo ako iniwan :) #feelinghappyandlucky  

dinner before the interview - di ko man lang na enjoy yung treat ni ace sa sobrang kaba T_T 

thank you guys! and carolene sa pag sama at pag hihintay sa akin :) at kay ernest na may ibang agenda O_O

lately I've been very happy and inspired because of  some reason around me.. family,friends,crush and God :) so i set a side those negative thought on my head and makes my heart feels the right vibe. reaching god through  his word and my faith makes me feel secured. in spite of those sadness, disappointment and frustration in life. yeah! i know i've been depressed and feelin' empty through the years and learning to accept and let things fall into place is really hard for me. but now , i know there some point in mind that i can now managed. well it just happened that life would never be easy as much as we want. but dealing to this is the best way to live for it. :)

seeing someone reaching her/his goals is really inspiring. dreaming like them is my way reaching my own goals. don't stop believing and praying. maybe their time now and i believed my own time will come in the right perfect god's will

ace got the news. she already hired as HR Rep. ^^ that was so noicee hehe. proud for her. but here i'm again feeling down. hehe drama. someone leave again and still stuck. hehe

its been a while since my last post. oh well busy for so many things. work and some other stuff. hehe

my anti-HBS for PGH since i'm planning to have my volunteer there. i got my result a week ago. and happy for the result because my antibodies still REACTIVE hehe less gastos for another shot. done for requirements and still waiting for their call O_O and still hoping. and waiting for athena to complete her requirements. hehe excited ako at least mappractice ko na rin yung pagiging nurse. no worries for me and keep my self busy for the whole week.

happy bacause i already got my samsung S3 hehe this is between my heart and mind. my hardship for these past years hahaha kaya ngayon nganga ako and i need to save all over again hehe. savings plss :)

hahaha kapal ng mukha ko puro luho di naman ako sumusweldo ng malaki at may utang pa kami haha

naiisip ko lang naman na gusto ko ipamper yung sarili ko kahit sa mga bagay na magpapasaya sa akin.

for my whole life puro stress at problema lang nararamdaman ko hehehe.

sa work? hmmm ok naman since may intern naman well those rich kids hahaha as always nosebleed mga batang conyo. pero they're ok as co-worker hehe well i see a better future for them. iba talaga pag pinanganak na mayaman haha kakaingit. anyway stress ba ako sa work? hmmm mejo lang dahil sa mga problema na dumating. may demand for data analyst tapos mga issue sa interview. pakiramdam ko minsan nabubully ako T_T ang hirap kaya ng trabaho ko kahit mukang madali kasi reception area lang ako pero yung parang araw araw na  pasok ng mga applikante, lahat ng attitude maeenconter mo kaya di ko rin maiwasang wag mag sungit haha soooorrrry ^^ tapos may mga taong di nakakaintindi. well ayaw ko lang mastress dahil sa ganoon.  gusto ko positive lang since GOODVIBES ako this month.

minsan masarap kausap si ms. zen. alam ko totoong tao naman xa. i mean genuine sya. walang pretensions. may sense kausap about buhay buhay. kasi may mga nashare sya sa akin about sa family nya. well siguro pag dating sa work iba sya saka di ko naman din sya kilala talaga nag babase ako sa nakikita at nararamdaman ko pagdating sa trabaho. after nag pag uusap ngayon may narealized ako "kaya pala" :)

Ms. ai ~ sweet naman sya ee. alam ko strong ang personality nya, kaya minsan nilalamon nya ako ng buhay pag kausap ko sya O_O yun minsan naooffend ako sa mga approached nya. pakiramdam ko nabubully ako plsssss helppp me. hahaha "alam ko may mga thoughts sya--wag kong lang malalaman" grrr. anyway just go to the flow na lang hehehe. tapos si ms. jinky parang sinisi nya ako sa mga for approval na na offer pending. T_T alam ko may kasalan ako duuun pero wag naman ganoon na parang may paninisi sa iba. may kasalanan din sya di kasi sila marunong mag check ng abacus. well given na buntis kasi sya kaya mejo moody saka mabait naman si ms. jinky sweet din. siguro nga may mga times na wala sa mood ang mga tao. yolo!

~at ngayoooon feeling goodvibes ako. sana magtuloy tuloy lang to :D

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i've been busy for this past few weeks. and i'm so damn tired.  hahaha well i should be happy because i'm blessed to had my work.and these days, looking for a better job is definitely a challenge for anyone.

demand for out sourcing people for this month is just a huge work for us. and that is really good right? hahaha a bit sacrifices when it comes to time and social life.well i'm talking about overtime and some goodtimes. and this past few days i had lot of overtime and usually late out just to finish all my stuff. i couldn't take to leave it all my work and do it to another day  Y_Y and that's being "ningas kugon". why should i do it tomorrow if i can do it now. instead i'll take it as positive as i wish hehe well more overtime it's means more money hahahaha.

i never forget to have some fun when i had spare time. spending time with friends is really great. like going to church during weekends with abby. and recently we just met and  makes me wait for 2hrs. urgg >_< i've been early because our house's ceiling needs to fixed. as early as 7am. would you imagine our house without bubong hahaha ~ang init init nga eh so i decided to leaved early hahaha saka makatakas sa trabaho :)

~abby had her new phone samsung galaxy SIII.and i'm dying because i also want to have that one :(

huhuhu i need android phone pls. and i felt outdated because everyone had their android phones and iphones. and me even i've worked but i had this phones. ( nokia expressmusic and C5-03) but couldn't let this phones or give it away to my siblings. and that's my problem, letting something for me is really hard ~ "may sentimental value kasi and treasure ko kasi lahat ng bagay na meron ako kahit bigay lang at binili ko, maingat talaga ako sa gamit. di ko maiisip na ipamigay gamit ko. maiinis lang ako pag nakita kong di inaalagaan ang gamit na iibigay ko" so i can't help it if i see those things. parang ang damoooot ko diba? hahah well that's me. O_O

~i envy abby and athena as well because of that S3. they bought it online at kimstore (click this link and you'll see those gadget they sell) i believed this is leggit hehehe :) when S4 was launched  a month ago. and that time S3 had its price drops, a huge price drop online. so i'm here dying to buy it. but i can't decide,well i considered a lot of  things before i bought something. i know its "LUHO" and i don't need it as much i need savings. if i do that, its a huge adjustment to my savings. and i know that there more other things are much important than this. but i really want to have that one. bahala na.

May 15~

Karaoke time with onboarding team :) that was a really good time with them.  having dinnner at mang inasal and kantahan afterward. bonding moment with them is just an escape after work. yun nga lang di ako kumanta~ shame on me, O_O as much i want to sing. but i dont want to put my self on a spot.and feel disappointed about my talent hahahaha -ihhh kakainis gusto ko kumanta like the end the world pero mahiyain ang boses ko at matutulog pa rin as always hahahaha.

May 18~

since gile is about to leave this May going to Saudi. we had a bonding moment with mia. and these things i'm surely miss. :( karaoke and movie date at sm manila. ~same above. my singing career is now fading way :( hahaha i need to practice at least one song right? para di naman ako nganga sa kantahan O_O anyway. i hope gile will be ok in saudi. and now reaching her dreams is now on her way. after 2years magkikita kami ule and i hope ok sya doon. matapang naman at alam kong kakayanin nya. nakakamis yung biglang lakad tapos magsisimba sa baclaran at quiapo, pupunta sa SM manila para magpalipas ng oras. :| yung usapang may sense at kabuluhan sa bawat pinag uusapan. 

~i love them as much they love me. be proud and happy to have them. life won't be complete with real friends. thru thin and thick they're always there.

summer is officially started. and now i'm currently freezing in the sun hahaha. but before the long weekends start, accenture peeps planned an overnight swimming in bulacan hidden sanctuary resort. Ms.Aileen, Ms. Jinky, Jhay ann, Mama Roma and me unfortunately Jen wasn't able to go with us. because her daughter need to rush in hospital for checked up . i felt sorry for jen, because she's very excited for this overnight and she's the one who insisting this things.  but we're happy that her daughter is now better. 

w're just had an exciting experienced along the way. well, a heavy traffic in edsa and we're just stuck up for almost 1hr. 0_0 & mama roma felt guilty because we're waiting for her for almost 2 hrs i guess ?! haha. sobrang tagal O_O anyway after reaching balintawak and we need to ride bus or van going to bulacan tungko***  and the most funniest thing ever happened that time hahaha since holiday and  all the passengers  had a hard time waiting for their ride. and then right after we walked , we're all panicking and aggressively to ride on a newly arrived van. and ms. jinky push me inside the van while ms. ai tried to block the door just to take those seats. and she actually smock the girl who's trying to take her place. and ms. ai told to us. " sige pasok na kayo, ok na ako dito" and we're all thinking what she's mean about that , since there's no place for her hahaha since she's too big for small space near the door. anyway she make her self ok to that place and i dont know how? and we're all laughing after that. hahaha that's really hilarious.

~ nice chatting to ms. ai and ms. jinky. because we're all sleepy and tired but there's no place to sleep. so we decided to have a drink and make some talked. that was a career consultation between us and slash heart to heart talked :) well really nice to have that moment with them. jhay-ann had a difficult time to decide between her decision and steve plan. if she's going to Australia and live with steve or just to stay here and continue her work and grow for herself. she's too hesitant committing for new option if ever. well,  jhay-ann and her boyfriend are both unpredictable that's why they both unsure for  there relationship. well i hope they could find better option and sincerely moment for talk. 

anyway. setting goals for our self is the only option that we need to find better path. for this moment i'm still undecided and  trying to build my long term goals .but i had my goals for now.

photos over load :)

short review :

Hidden Sanctuary Hotel and Resort,

Camansi Prenza 1, Marilao, Bulacan, 3019, Philippines

* no system when it comes accommodating guess.

reception area is not organize and there's no main personnel that responsible for everything.

*they don't know what cottages are unoccupied and occupied.

* stinky smell when you in a pool area.because i think there's a near poultry/hog farm within the area.

* pool water is not clear or not chlorinated and its look dirty  (or because its overnight that's why i don't appreciated the pool water maybe?)

*CR is not that so clean and even the stair and prone for accident because it's made on tiles and too slippery (cabanas area)

*clean area infairness except the CR and the stair :)

*not crowded.

*nice concept for canabas. i like the room with build in electric fan and two table with provided padlock except the thin long chair T_T. because we can't even seat properly.

*nice water supply 

*clean shower room for boys and provided shower tube per cubicle.

i don't know how this week starts. hahaha anyway, this past few days i been eating and eating the whole day. hahaha and this boredom turns to be an eating habits. sarap kumain ee talaga

nomnomnomnom 

ace and i had dinner foodtrip in S&R last tuesday after searching for a Notary public stand along aurora street in cubao. for her clearance in st. luke's hosp.  well another sad sorry, O_O ace also want to leave and now she's already searching for better job. #alarming on my part tsk! well i hope that she could find it soon. ^_^) well now i'm also planning for that. hehehe  and last friday kumain din kami with mama roma at alvin sa S&R. (picture provided by google)

~well ace is on leaved last wed, because she need to attend her interview in st. luke's , so i been assigned in pet, O_O seriously? kinakabahan ako hAHAHAah anyway OK naman haha maliban sa mga RN na di ko na update. and the following day, this is most annoying things that day. well yung tracker na ginagamit ko sa recep. all of a sudden biglang bumigat yung load ( talking about the properties ) >.<

KAKAASAR LUNGS! O_O hahaha pero ok na nagawan ko naman ng paraan at gumawa ng ako ng backup.

last day, miss zen asked me if i also  have plans applying abroad ? and i say yes. yun advice nya na "mag earn muna daw ako ng experience para may career path na raw ako katulad ni ace and carene" well kahit paano it make sense hahaha -- tulad dati baguhin ko daw yung password ko : "foreveralone" i'll never be alone sabi ni miss zen ~ ok naman si miss zen yun lang minsan may ibang aura sya na di ko ma explain. may instinct talaga haha. well i can't judge people by a random feelings."dahil my kanya kanyang pinagdadaanan tayo"

mid week - abby talked to me for her prospect agency going to dubai,. well she trying to convince me to take the HAAD exam for that. and  for my experienced i need to fake it just to be process for that post Nursing home. for me, i had a lot of questions? and i'm too hesitant for this. ayoko mandaya baka bigla akong bumingo lagot! hahaha and if i take that exam, there's any assurance that i'll be selected for that post.and as far as i know medical muna bago yung interview. its sound stupid for me. >_< anyway! it should  her choice and i don't have any rights to pull her back, hmm advice lang siguro but its up to her. maybe it this is the time to make my own plan..

GOODLUCK FOR ME.

this is really for real. and seriously. carene is already resigned 0_0. i dunno if im gonna be happy or upset. well of course, I'm Happy ~ because this is a another journey for carene and a big break for her  to grow. saka stress free na ako sa office. hahaha wolo ng mang-bubully saka pressure. but on the other side. nakakalungkot din kasi wala na akong kasabay pauwi kahit minsan tinatakasan ko din xa. saka alam kong may kakampi ako. wala na rin sasalo pag may ginawa akong mali. goodluck para sa akin >_<  hay i need to move on. well ganyan talaga ang buhay kailangan mag step forward para sa mas maganda at exciting na buhay :D

goodluck for carene and i wish the best for her ~ kahit maraming nagsasabing mahirap yung pinasukan nya. naniniwala ako na kaya nya yun. :D sana lang makapag ipon na sya :)

at kangaroo jack araneta cubao with gateaway peepz :D

last session for carene's last day

flirty pink and antonov ice

ace on stage. singing "TORETE" 

bad mood monday ~ 

heart = tummy

face time with baby panda ~ tiff 

saturday plan is all set. abby texted me regarding for our application hahaha so i'll decided to go with her even thou i'm so lazy to do some stuff. >_< because my body, my mind and my FACE needs some rest and my plan for that whole day is to get some sleep T__T but you know i just think that i need to make some step for better tomorrow hahaha  dreamer**

i just went to abby's dorm for some editing to our resume hahaha *bad doing,but i just keep doing it. no choices ee anyway a long story. so we just went to makati for agency and having for our interview  i wasn't prepare for that O_O seriously! i don't know what will happened after that. hoping***

anyway i told to abby that i'm going to stay with her at their dorm. and i suggest to make some spaghetti since i was "bitin" eating spag. at mcdo O_O but we end up cooking sopas :) hahaha its a good decision anyway. so we just dropped by on the near super market along libertad and abby bought some stuff for Ron (her boyfriend) Y_Y ron is really lucky being abby's boyfriend. this is indeed! :) and we also bought some ingredients for sopas. after grocery we also decided to dropped by in Baclaran church for having a divine intervention for us :D *faith

i'm so tired all day! because of carrying those grocery bags. O_O i texted mia, i just asked her if she want to go with us and stay to abby's dorm.  ~super saya lang kumain kami ng sopas and kwentuhan and besides mia will start her duty as psyche nurse in mandaluyong and gile did passed in HAAD - not sure if that is correct term. well that is exam for middle east for those nurses who had plan to work there. O_O ingget much* GOODLUCK for them and i wish the best for them :) anyway  akala nila dun kami matutulog but i need to go home. and i need to meet gerlyn because she's  going to pay me :) and i had an bonding moment with her nag lakad kami papuntang karuhatan valenzuela :D  

this week is really a head turning up side down. and i feel that this is not for me.hahaha because i felt moody last sunday and i bring it until monday.my monday is a moody day for me because i woke up late, long trip going to office, a head burning MRT experienced and a bad jokes. these all things makes me irrated and felt uncomfortably all day.so when tiff ( closefriends) cracks some jokes and start to teased me >_< i just felt annoyed and got hurts. and i'm just like pissed off and i keep shouting and throwing some bad words at back on my mind. and asking my self that "why me" and referring to them that they need to be sensentive enought for what i feel sometimes. maybe i'm not always a happy person that they know but i'm just still a human that can feel bad sometimes. haha yuck too sensitive pagu** bakit ba? ee wala ako sa moody eh

so i didn't talked tiff the whole day and i just keep quiet. know just pretending that she doesn't exist

but still i love that panda hahaha it just happened that i need some space to be okay.. but right after that day i tried to reach her thru OC (office com. chat) and we're okay after that :D tiff is not just a simple workmates for me there something between us hahaha i feel comfortable with her.

my world seems like a roller coaster for this past few days. i've been struggling for all emotion. career, future, decision, opinion, feelings, and that's how i called it L-I-F-E .my life wasn't boring because of this. and the least i can do is to take some time just to think of it and after that is to laugh  haha :) 

well, i been taking the recep area for two days because last Wednesday ace is on a sick leave. so carene will be the pet admin for that day. and that was so a tiring day for me. i had a 100+ candidates and i been talking for the whole day. ( so i know how hard to be alone in that area. since carene been there all day.) anyway, i think i've been traumatize with carene .. the feelings of being pressure is always there. like every move that i make. i need to be more precise and perfect and i need to make sure that all that things are falls in carene's approval and should be right. now i'm kinda scared of her *_*

then thursday, carene texted me that she's been feels lazy about her work load. so she informed ms. jean that she's been feeling not well and being stressed out about her work load and she need some rest and time to think about her plan. so that day, i been taking the recep area the whole day.and same feelings during the last day. i've been worried about everything because of carene. ( traumatize )

anyway, me and ace we're talking about our future plan, regarding career growth or what will happened to us after this and were also talking about carene's move and about her decisions.

in fairness to carene we're also talking about that matter last day. and she seems so tired about her workload and issues regarding career growth. like what she shared to me that her all colleagues are all ok  when it comes to their career path not like her, that she's been a sub-con for almost 3yrs in accenture and she's been worried about her security as employee. so she need  to step out  to make new decision about the path she want to go through. 

"kung iisispin mo nga naman, tama naman sya. kung dapat na sya ma-alarm sa aspetong ganoon. siguro nag-reflect lang si carene ng kung anong meron at kung nasaan na sya ngayon. which is right. because in some point kailangan natin i-assess yung sarili natin kung nabubuo na ba tayo bilang matured na tao.

pero na isip ko lang din na mali sya? kasi sa sitwasyon nya ngayon., parang ni-mag karoon ng savings di nya magawa. na kung tutuusing ay para lang sakanya yung kinikita nya. ni walang umaasa sa kanya at walang magulang na naghihintay sa  iaabot nyang pera. na parang doon pa lang ang swerte nya kasi may chance sya na maghintay sa opportunity na dadating  galing accenture. di rin naman kasi biro yung investment nya sa accenture.. ano ba naman yung magihintay muna sya at wag mag papaapekto sa mga bagay bagay. di pa nya tinanggap yung offer sa kanya noon. be responsible enough before you step out to your comfort zone and deal for challenges.yung di ka lang dedepende sa mga taong nasa palagid mo. 

minsan pag dumating na yung opportunity na ibibigay  sayo,wag ka na mag-alinlangan kung wala ka naman ibang paraan at plano pa, para di ka magsisi pag naisip mong huli na lahat at gusto mo na umusad.pero di ko naman din masisisi si carene. may kanya kanyang pinag-dadaanan ang bawat tao at may iba't iba ding mga dahilan at paraan kung paaano natin malalagpasan  lahat. siguro may sarili syang plano at diskarte sa buhay.

~because of this, Ms. Jean talked to us. regarding for our future plans. if we're still willing to extend our contract. for me i'm still grateful if i'm still extended. i still enjoying my stay here because i learned a lot far from my wildest dream hahaha besides this kind of evironment helps me to be more confident and i earned a lot of experiences.  but i hate the pressured and presence of carene. (traumatized haha) well my goal is to   work out of the country and being settled out there. hopefully**.  for me this is the least thing i can do for my family and for myself.because i want to be a good provider for them.

anyway. Ms. jean treat us in Chattime. nomnom :)

i don't have any idea about there product. but i already tried it once i think its Pearl Milk Tea :) anyway by this time i tried Matcha Mousse. strong flavored tea mousse. its kinda weird if you're not fan of milk tea. but for me its really taste good. ace told me to mixed it up with the mousse, so the bitterness taste will compliment with the mousee. well for me that is a good choice and healty for our digestion.
(picture is not mine. provided by google )

 

well my friday is a blast of happenings.

a scheduled date with my gateway friends and also a bonding moment with nica and aimee, since they're planning to move out for good. oh well!  another career issues. Aimee decided to file resignation last decemeber and her last day will be on tuesday ( jan 15) she also planning to work abroad too. and i wish all the best for her. she's been a good friend to me ever since at dama ko yun haha. wag lang syang mangungutang :)

carene,nica, aimee, mama roma, ace

we ate first at pepper lunch here in gateway before we start the movie. hehe ace recommend  me to try this one. " beef pepper rice" well i like it because its our choice what seasoning we want to put on. " its a "honey soy sauce" and  "garlic soy sauce" Y_Y i'm not sure how they call it haha anyway, i put it all on my plate. so its kinda spicy after i mixed all the stuff on my plate. so for me its pretty taste good :) nomnom ^^  there is a "bitin factor" haha its not suit in my appetite since i prefer a huge meal. not worth it for php. 145.00 with out drinks. but the food  itself is really good.

 

after that we watched "one more try" but nica wasn't able to watched with us. she has an overnight with her highschool friends in tondo.  anyway ace, mama roma, aimee and carene. we're so affected about the movie. well nice movie they're able to discussed all sides. how can you deal to this kind of problem if you're both committed  and what if you're the wife, what will you do? you actually share you're husband ? and if you're the man who unconditionally inlove to that girl with had a dying child and willing to do anything just to protect her child. are you willing to give that chance to be selfless and accept all the things. even if your ego as a man is dragging down. this story is a picture of drama but eventually they're able to accept all the consequences.

 like in real life, there's always a chance that we need to make decision even if against to our will. because we need to. kasi yun yung tama at yun lang ang paraang pwede nating gawin. and but then, there's always some point that we need to be selfless and trust the people you love.

i'm in trouble. my days turns to a different ways again..

how do you understand others feelings when your not letting your self understand everything. it should be balance and equal

paano mo maiintindihan yung kapwa mo kung sarado naman yung isipan mo. well a few days ago. we're planning something about our career.  hindi ko lang makuha yung point na gusto iparating ni mia.. yeah i know we already planned it. but still i have  my choice to decide di naman pwede yung basta-basta ka lang sasabak sa isang bagay na meron palang ibang paraan. i'm just being practical. 

may kasalanan ako kasi hindi matutuloy yung plano. pero dahil ba sa desisyon ko hindi na rin xa tutuloy? what the hell ** I'm just choosing the other option but I'm letting her to do what she think is better. hindi naman kailangan dumepende sa isang tao lang ee. paano ka mag-ggrow as individual or as a person. 

this is not being unfair to anyone.. NAG-HINTAY,MAGKAIBIGAN,MAG-KASAMA KASI at NAKA-PLANO NA. so? ang pagkakaibigan ba ay masusukat sa isang bagay na ganito. di naman siguro ako naging unfair. kasi una sa lahay ininform ko sya/sila na i'm doing the other option because i dont want leave them behind without any words. yung ba yung pagiging unfair?. as friends iniisip ko nga yung kakahinatnan namin if ever matuloy kami kaya gumagawa ako ng mas ok na option pero in the end ako pa lalabas na narrow minded. if ever walang mangyari sa option ko matutuloy din naman un.

well. she is unfair. gusto nia pati kami magsasakrapisyo at susugal sa isang bagay na kasama xa. gusto nya sasamahan ko/namin sya kasi natatakot sya mag isa? paano naman yung free will namin. i hope  everything will be alright. before anyone else friendship is one the most important things to me. well something that's bothering me.. kahit gaano mo pala kakilala ang isang tao may chance din plang di nyo maiintindihan ang isa't isa. so it's a matter of acceptance and understanding.

In the end, some of your greatest pains become some of your greatest strengths.

 oh well this past few weeks. I've been busy about my nursing career. one of my relative asked my mom, if i want to work in hospital as a trainee nurse. oh well mom say yes. because there's one time that i told to her that if I've been given a chance to practice my profession i would rather grab that opportunity.  right after that. kuya jayson advised me to prepare my necessary requirements.  so i need to have photocopies of all my school docs and i also need to have NBI clearance as well. huhuhu :(

hayyys. i just remembered how hard to get NBI clearance. because of this i need to lie that i have my eye check up on that day to be able to a lot a half day just to get it. then i've been scheduled to get it after 5 days. wtf! so i let my sister to do it since allowed to send someone to claim it. after 5 days my sister told me this : "kuya muntik ko ng di makuha yung NBI mo kasi daw yung picture mo dun my strap ng bag. buti na lang napakiusapan ko na yung bantay dun". technically is not my fault,  from the very start since that is not allowed to carry a bag or something ,why they let me to do it. " naku buti na lang binigay nila NBI ko. kundi aabsent ule ako para i claim or mag pa picture para lang sa pag kakamali nila."

anyway after a week. i've been advised by kuya jayson that i need to report at Jose Reyes Memorial Hospital on the date that he given to me. so i was like excited and kinda nervous about the opportunity

that was given to me. i dont know if i'm enough prepared . hahaha my mom also excited for me. she already wash my white uniform and prepared my white duty shoes..

well the actual day is here. so i woke up early as the usual time that i used to.i prepared all the stuff i need. after wearing my white uniform i felt that " this is it.my dreams is gradually granted" :) happy much.

i take jeep going to monumento and take a jeep gain going to recto. i also asked the driver if his route could pass at Jose Reyes Hospital and he answered me YES! so I'm confident that i can see it along the street. but i will takes awhile i've been worried bacause there's no sign that we've been reaching it shortly.so i asked the driver  " kuya malapit na po ba  yung Jose Reyes." he answered me "hala nako lagpas na tayo. sige maglakad ka papunta dun at sumakay ka ng jip" --kaya pala nag bago kami ng daanan

anyway when i was already there, i don't know what should i do or who should i need to look for. so i asked the guard where is the main entrance. then he said " ah mag eexam po ba kayo? dun po yun sa 5th floor" so i hurried to get there. while going up stair, i've been talking to my self like this "my god, may exam pala hindi ako prepared ano kaya isasagot ko" that time i don't have any idea about the exam and i was like "bahala na" so when i was already there. i approached the admin staff and i asked her about the nurse trainee and exam. so she checked my name on their list. and she couldn't find it. so she advised me to go to the chief nurse office down stair. so when i was already at the chief nurse office, they asked my name and i explained that i was advice by sir Jayson to report on that day. and then they checked again my name on there list and as usual they couldn't find it gain. but they're already advised me to fill up the RN Heal form and be come back on the other day at 10am for my first day as trainee.

 Yes I'm a fighter no matter what happened. i'll fight until the end..