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Thursday, October 20, 2016

Marriage Posted at October 20, 2016 0 comments (+)

When we think that we're worth of love? Being In relationship, both of them should be committed to each other. (I was talking like I knew it well haha) I have a patient who lived at Jurong west. He's been diagnosed of kidney failure due to of diabetes. This old man who's been married 3 times.. And sadly he failed his past 2 marriage and but I think he's happy for his current commitment on his latest Wife now.

He is too old and ill to be failed again. I ask him what happened to his past relationship and why he end up like this. He told me his first Wife left because that time he's been starting to be sick and during that days he's not financially stable and he got children to support. And his second Wife was not emotionally stable to understand his situation and find another man to fulfill whatever she needs.

What my take for this. Based on what my patient's story. No matter what, love and relationship should be bonded with commitment and mostly understanding. Possibly love would faded in a Long run. There's a lot of factors why they end up to this kind of stage. But marriage should last forever from sickness and death.. I'm not judging the other side and I don't even know their story as well. But what we know about marriage is about togetherness throughout the hardship and they're meant to stay together no matter what. although i don't know the real reason behind it.

What I've noticed about Uncle. He's very caring toward his Wife. Those Simple things make me think why he's past wives left him. He is ill now, but the point is, he still able to make an effort to prepare food for his Wife. This is something commendable right? He's not like other patient who's fussy and short tempered because they're sick and fed up about their situation but this Uncle, he's very sweet and caring about auntie in spite of his condition.

Love comes with responsibility. This just like power possessed by anyone of us. My deeper understanding about it might not the same as yours or to other people. But for me, It's a sharing of commitment and passion each day. I'm not here to judge those people who failed their marriage or people who's easily gave up their promises because they fell out of love. I guess the valid reason is when you're not happy anymore it would not be worth it to stay in that relationship and be victim of a one sided love, this will be against what I believe in but in every single thing there's an exception. Love is also about freedom and not holding to something that make you both Miserable. Letting go and moving on are the key of true love. Do you think it does make sense when I say, before you get into marriage both sides should be ready to take the responsibility and be together through out the difficulties. Fight and save your relationship until you can but when things turn hard for both of sides I Guess that's the time to let go.

Disclaimer: this is my own perspective. Not a love guru :)

Labels: commitment, experience, love, marriage, nurse, thoughts, view

Sunday, March 30, 2014

"suicide notes" - article for Level 1 Posted at March 30, 2014 1 comments (+)

“Suicide Notes”

Life should be treasured like a gift. Well! This should be considered as sacred when it comes to spiritual aspect. As many of us always mind this thought, but there someone out there think that his/her life is just like a mess. This people tend to be weak, when he/she experienced depression and some emotional disturbances. And because of this weakness, he/she makes more prone to a self-inflicted instances. This what we called “suicide”

Suicidal thoughts, also known as suicidal ideation are thoughts about how to kill oneself, which can range from a detailed plan to a fleeting consideration and does not include the final act of killing oneself. The majority of people who experience suicidal ideation do not carry it through. Some may, however, make suicide attempts. Some suicidal ideations can be deliberately planned to fail or be discovered, while others might be carefully planned to succeed.

Some study shows that this generation, the most prone of this tendency are Teenager and Middle age man. How come these people handle this situation? And how they can deal with it? And by ending their lives, will could save them from their depression or even what they went through. By all means this act is their escape for all pains they have.

Suicidal ideation is a feeling people may have when they are no longer able to cope with an overwhelming situation, which could be financial, the death of somebody they love, breaking up, or a devastating/debilitating illness. There may be a feeling of bleakness and an erroneous assumption that taking their own life might be the answer. If the individual's mental state is heightened enough, suicide may seem to be the only exit.

Experts believe there may be a genetic factor associated with a higher risk of suicide. Individuals with suicidal thoughts, or those who have taken their own lives tend to have a family history of suicide or suicidal thoughts.

Emergency Room is one of the place were these people end up. Doctors and nurses tried to save them. And deal to their needs. And as one of them, this experienced is just an eye opener to me and all of us. we need to be more aware about these people. And As medical practitioner, I need to be more informed about their needs and how can I help them too. Dealing and understanding them is the best way to know them better. This thing could be possible happened to anyone of us.

Mental illness is the most common cause of suicidal ideation and completed suicide. A significant number of mental problems, such as depression, can be successfully treated with medications and talking therapies, such as CBT (cognitive behavioral therapy) or counseling. Individuals with a mental illness/problem should see their doctor and get treatment.

Labels: article, ER, notes, nurse, suicide notes

Sunday, March 23, 2014

my emerygency room experience Posted at March 23, 2014 0 comments (+)

when i was browsing my facebook. One of my fb friend post his status about his experienced in hospital when he mistakenly entered to a room and saw with his own two eyes, how doctors trying to revived his patient . so, i came out with an idea. lemme share you my experienced in PHG ER as volunteer nurse.

i know i haven't had a lot of experienced when it comes to this part.but regardless how short I've been exposed to this experience. i know this things would be an eye opener for me and to other people.

when days flies so fast, same the time that i've been staying in PGH in almost hundred hours.

at last! i can barely say that i was a nurse sometimes :D and that's a really fulfilling on my part.And in this reality, there's some chances that you considered as blessing in this guise. i've never imagined that this chances that possibly happened to me now. i've never thought but it happened. :)

Emergency Room, not the place that you want to go. every day there is one person fighting for his life. a battle between life and death. and how could you cope up for this scenario, if you have issue about death. and a serious note to yourself that everyone of us are destined to die. but we die in a different way. could we die in a snap! no pain, but just one click and we end up like reaching the end of the light and the other could possible die in the most painful way. other people die in illness, suffering from their pains, battle for their lives and sudden accident could lead them to the end of the road and that's death.

"yung nakasanayan ko na yung pag pasok twing weekends sa PGH ng 8am, minsan maabutan mo yung isang patient sa loob ng ER puro dugo yung mukha kasi na aksidente. may malalaking sugat na parang tinaga. tapos may na mimilipit sa sobrang sakit ng tya, at bigla na lang magsusuka

"When I go to PGH every weekends for my duty, i always had a chance to seen a patient suffering from pain. multiple vehicular accident patient who totally messed out. blood all over his face. a big wound slashed to his face. patient who suffers in Coronary Artery Disease (stroke), unconscious patient who tried to assess by resident doctors, they trying to apply pressure on chest bone with full forced, just to know if the patient can response. and a lot more action in actually place.

i used to be brave, because this is all i want to be and i believed that the both world can be the best and more exciting than to my regular days. of course, at first i was scared and nervous being part of it. my days passing those death people is just like a HORROR movie for me. i cant even touch them or see them :(

now being here in ER. where i can actually experienced how they save lives. CODE to CPR, ET tube insertions, NGT, IV line, Blood extraction , many times they do the maneuvers, some procedures, and how some pt. came to their end. these things are just a normal routine for them, or should i say for US.

- isang laro ng patentero ang buhay, para makadaan sa kabilang linya kailangan lagpasan ang kalaban. Ang buhay ay isang cycle din ISSUE-PROBLEMA-SOLUSYON tapos back to start again, so walang katapusan ang problema. and this how we need to deal with it. ang buhay nga naman. no choice no?! until you have the choices, so for now make to live to the fullest
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life is unfair, but we don't need to dwell on it. instead, use it to survive and be ready to any challenges to come out

Labels: death, ER, life, nurse, phg

Thursday, October 10, 2013

project interview and thank you :) Posted at October 10, 2013 2 comments (+)

finally! got the result for my application in PHRN post. well as i expected, i didn't pass the interview from the project. "expect the worst" well. feeling disappointed in some point. about my teammates, all their efforts and encouragement for me. and they're all happy and excited about this opportunity for me. well. it seems, that's wasn't meant for me. nah! this is just a test for me and makes me more determined about every single challenge.

nakakahiya lang kay ms. ai, jinky, zen, and ms. ana - yung effort nila yung concerned sila sa application ko. yung sila pa yung nag eencourage sa akin na ma-prepare ako para sa interview~ diba ang sweet lang :( yung sila pa yung mas naniniwalang kakayanin ko yung post. every now and then kinakamusta ako ni ms. zen para sa interview ko. yung pag tawag ni ms. ai para sa late interview ko. pag mamadali ni ms. jinky para sa application ko at yung pag mock interview ni ms.ana para mas prepared ako sa interview. #luckyhere

sort of disappointment on my part. since, this could be a break for me. chance and opportunity for new career. i asked myself why i didn't make it. =_= hehe and what do i expect about the interview questions. tskk! and i've never expected that he's going to ask me about the my clinical experienced. and that's a shocked on my part -_- i wasn't prepared O_O and i'm collecting myself for an answers like an idiot hahaha. kasi naman -_- may pag tatanong na out of nowhere TT_TT ~ it's been 2years last i know my course. kaya gusto ko mag duty na rin sa hospital pala ma refresh ako. - not being a pessimist about the result but preparing myself for the worse thing. you know acceptance hehe let's move on thou.

"masama ang loob"? but actually not more on nahihiya lang :) my good attitude is saying that is OKAY maybe trying it again or do the other way around. pang NURSE pala talaga ako. kahit di ko nasagot ng matino yung mga clinical question ng masungit na interviewer. haha or either pang abroad talaga ako. well see soon :)

well this not for me. so better off to moved on and plan for PLAN B and be ready for the back up plans :) by the end of the day. this is just a sort of test and faith. might as well my FATE. i dont know, what will be the next things would happen for me =) well still hoping and waiting for blessing. i'm not lucky for the past days, for sure there's a great chance for me soon. and i believed it.

im still happy although i didn't make it. you know! there's a chance to know the persons who really care about me. those people who i didn't ask for help but willing to extend their hands for me. thank you guys! kahit di nyo nababasa to. but i'm really grateful and thankful for your love and care. my whole teammates and friends. sheet! teary eyes ako haha joke. but deep inside and from the bottom of my heart. thank you. appreciated much.

same chair at 17 floor - the interview was done on that chair -_- for the record di sya comfortable upuan haha

upon waiting~ nakuha ko pa mag selfie - almost 1hrs ako nag hintay for interview -_- #halosmamatayakosakaba

thank you ace for making me easy and relax. and thank you for the support ~ di mo ako iniwan :) #feelinghappyandlucky

dinner before the interview - di ko man lang na enjoy yung treat ni ace sa sobrang kaba T_T

thank you guys! and carolene sa pag sama at pag hihintay sa akin :) at kay ernest na may ibang agenda O_O

Labels: career, friendship, interview, nurse, PHRN, thank you

Wednesday, June 12, 2013

updates :) Posted at June 12, 2013 2 comments (+)

its been a while since my last post. oh well busy for so many things. work and some other stuff. hehe

my anti-HBS for PGH since i'm planning to have my volunteer there. i got my result a week ago. and happy for the result because my antibodies still REACTIVE hehe less gastos for another shot. done for requirements and still waiting for their call O_O and still hoping. and waiting for athena to complete her requirements. hehe excited ako at least mappractice ko na rin yung pagiging nurse. no worries for me and keep my self busy for the whole week.

happy bacause i already got my samsung S3 hehe this is between my heart and mind. my hardship for these past years hahaha kaya ngayon nganga ako and i need to save all over again hehe. savings plss :)

hahaha kapal ng mukha ko puro luho di naman ako sumusweldo ng malaki at may utang pa kami haha

naiisip ko lang naman na gusto ko ipamper yung sarili ko kahit sa mga bagay na magpapasaya sa akin.

for my whole life puro stress at problema lang nararamdaman ko hehehe.

sa work? hmmm ok naman since may intern naman well those rich kids hahaha as always nosebleed mga batang conyo. pero they're ok as co-worker hehe well i see a better future for them. iba talaga pag pinanganak na mayaman haha kakaingit. anyway stress ba ako sa work? hmmm mejo lang dahil sa mga problema na dumating. may demand for data analyst tapos mga issue sa interview. pakiramdam ko minsan nabubully ako T_T ang hirap kaya ng trabaho ko kahit mukang madali kasi reception area lang ako pero yung parang araw araw na pasok ng mga applikante, lahat ng attitude maeenconter mo kaya di ko rin maiwasang wag mag sungit haha soooorrrry ^^ tapos may mga taong di nakakaintindi. well ayaw ko lang mastress dahil sa ganoon. gusto ko positive lang since GOODVIBES ako this month.

minsan masarap kausap si ms. zen. alam ko totoong tao naman xa. i mean genuine sya. walang pretensions. may sense kausap about buhay buhay. kasi may mga nashare sya sa akin about sa family nya. well siguro pag dating sa work iba sya saka di ko naman din sya kilala talaga nag babase ako sa nakikita at nararamdaman ko pagdating sa trabaho. after nag pag uusap ngayon may narealized ako "kaya pala" :)

Ms. ai ~ sweet naman sya ee. alam ko strong ang personality nya, kaya minsan nilalamon nya ako ng buhay pag kausap ko sya O_O yun minsan naooffend ako sa mga approached nya. pakiramdam ko nabubully ako plsssss helppp me. hahaha "alam ko may mga thoughts sya--wag kong lang malalaman" grrr. anyway just go to the flow na lang hehehe. tapos si ms. jinky parang sinisi nya ako sa mga for approval na na offer pending. T_T alam ko may kasalan ako duuun pero wag naman ganoon na parang may paninisi sa iba. may kasalanan din sya di kasi sila marunong mag check ng abacus. well given na buntis kasi sya kaya mejo moody saka mabait naman si ms. jinky sweet din. siguro nga may mga times na wala sa mood ang mga tao. yolo!

~at ngayoooon feeling goodvibes ako. sana magtuloy tuloy lang to :D

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Labels: career, life, nurse, samsung s3

Wednesday, November 14, 2012

nursing career Posted at November 14, 2012 4 comments (+)

oh well this past few weeks. I've been busy about my nursing career. one of my relative asked my mom, if i want to work in hospital as a trainee nurse. oh well mom say yes. because there's one time that i told to her that if I've been given a chance to practice my profession i would rather grab that opportunity. right after that. kuya jayson advised me to prepare my necessary requirements. so i need to have photocopies of all my school docs and i also need to have NBI clearance as well. huhuhu :(

hayyys. i just remembered how hard to get NBI clearance. because of this i need to lie that i have my eye check up on that day to be able to a lot a half day just to get it. then i've been scheduled to get it after 5 days. wtf! so i let my sister to do it since allowed to send someone to claim it. after 5 days my sister told me this : "kuya muntik ko ng di makuha yung NBI mo kasi daw yung picture mo dun my strap ng bag. buti na lang napakiusapan ko na yung bantay dun". technically is not my fault, from the very start since that is not allowed to carry a bag or something ,why they let me to do it. " naku buti na lang binigay nila NBI ko. kundi aabsent ule ako para i claim or mag pa picture para lang sa pag kakamali nila."

anyway after a week. i've been advised by kuya jayson that i need to report at Jose Reyes Memorial Hospital on the date that he given to me. so i was like excited and kinda nervous about the opportunity

that was given to me. i dont know if i'm enough prepared . hahaha my mom also excited for me. she already wash my white uniform and prepared my white duty shoes..

well the actual day is here. so i woke up early as the usual time that i used to.i prepared all the stuff i need. after wearing my white uniform i felt that " this is it.my dreams is gradually granted" :) happy much.

i take jeep going to monumento and take a jeep gain going to recto. i also asked the driver if his route could pass at Jose Reyes Hospital and he answered me YES! so I'm confident that i can see it along the street. but i will takes awhile i've been worried bacause there's no sign that we've been reaching it shortly.so i asked the driver " kuya malapit na po ba yung Jose Reyes." he answered me "hala nako lagpas na tayo. sige maglakad ka papunta dun at sumakay ka ng jip" --kaya pala nag bago kami ng daanan

anyway when i was already there, i don't know what should i do or who should i need to look for. so i asked the guard where is the main entrance. then he said " ah mag eexam po ba kayo? dun po yun sa 5th floor" so i hurried to get there. while going up stair, i've been talking to my self like this "my god, may exam pala hindi ako prepared ano kaya isasagot ko" that time i don't have any idea about the exam and i was like "bahala na" so when i was already there. i approached the admin staff and i asked her about the nurse trainee and exam. so she checked my name on their list. and she couldn't find it. so she advised me to go to the chief nurse office down stair. so when i was already at the chief nurse office, they asked my name and i explained that i was advice by sir Jayson to report on that day. and then they checked again my name on there list and as usual they couldn't find it gain. but they're already advised me to fill up the RN Heal form and be come back on the other day at 10am for my first day as trainee.

i was so shocked because I'm not available on the given time. and then i explained to them that i'm currently employed and i'm only available during night shift and during weekends. then they told to me this. "mister, hindi po kami tumatanggap ng part time job dito, wala din kaming night shift at nag sstart ang duty ng mga trainee nurse dito ng 6am-10pm. so pls. set your priority mababa lang yung sweldo dito kase sa work mo ngayon at yung program for nurses ay magtatagal ng 1 year."

so i've been disappointed because i really want this chance. i don't know, I torn between my dreams and reality. so i decided to text Mia since they are along the way. instead to go home early. i just choose to go with them for job hunting. after a few walk, chatting and Job Hunting. we decided to drop by at SM Manila to watch movie fiesta :) and we watched the LOCK OUT. well nice movie after a very tiring and depressing day.

Yes I'm a fighter no matter what happened. i'll fight until the end..

Labels: career, friendship, nurse

Friday, August 10, 2012

isn't your dream Posted at August 10, 2012 0 comments (+)

Well I’m talking to myself right now. Actually I felt so lonely and alone lately for these past few days. It’s all about my career. Very frustrating on my part because I really don’t know what things I should need to prioritize. Being a nurse is my ultimate dream and I took it for almost 5 years just to fulfil that dream. Life is ironic. Now I am a Registered Nurse since 2010 and I have been working to BPO Company as admin staff for almost 1year. It is like having money but I already had a license on my pocket. It is as you have choice to what you really want and what you really need.

However, life is as complicated as we expected. Like my situation right now, as much I want to pursue my dream or goal but as of now my priority is my family and our financially security. So much, sacrifice if I insist to continue my goal to be a nurse although it is so easy to practice my profession. SEMINAR and VOLUNTEER, work hard but no pay? This is what you called devotion and dedication but for my situation right now, I need to be selfish to myself. I need to weight everything that is between my family and my career.

Maybe someday I will be a better nurse. I had lot of experienced that I need just to be competitive. In addition, I hope that someday I will be successful as what I wish.

Labels: nurse, personal, random