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Saturday, April 2, 2016

Randomness Posted at April 02, 2016 0 comments (+)

Random day! i was thinking to find a Job online but I'm so lazy to do it :p beside I'm still waiting for my application In SGH (Singapore General Hospital) I'm applying for Nursing aide or healthcare assistant but the HR personnel asked me if I can be assigned for different Job opening, so Who am I to say no. I mean right now and the state of my life for this very moment, haha I can't be choosy and picky about work. I'm so hopeless right? well, that's life and I need to deal with it.

And about this Job Application, I didn't share this to anyone of my colleagues. Friends? or even to dennis :( hmmm This thing makes me selfish. Because I was thinking what if they're been hired and I'm left alone. sorry for being so selfish and not being so true friend and I'm guilty. anyway I hope things will be okay soon and if I succeed I'm going to share this to dennis. :) I'm not that bad not to share this to anyone. well life is life. in reality we need to be wise and smart and if life required to be rude and tough well, we should need to...

anyway, this might be one of my journey and hopefully I can get throught this. And all of my dreams will be on the same page. I have a lot of things that i want to do. I wanted to try all those weird things in earth. How I wish I have powers to switch myself to different places and be wild as I can. hehe (Day dreaming dude:>) those inspiring travel Video Blogs are killing me hahaha but it's so fun to watched it. I was like there and enjoying their moment too haha yes! this is a typical day dreaming. I never get tired to watched those VBlogs because it brings happiness to me whenever I watched them. and I'm also addicted to kpops trends and Korean drama again. I have a plenty of time to watched their music videos on Youtube and I can't be tired as hell. hahaha.

hey! days passed so fast. How cool it was right? haha or this is weird having a sudden rush of time and we suddenly noticed that we were nearly in the middle of the year hehe. How I wish that time will pause and enjoy every bit of it. like wanna go to beach, hiking or shopping and those days will never end like an infinite time line. just to able to have a never ending happiness. :) how cool it sounds right?

DREAMER

Labels: day, dreamers, dreams, job, life, random, random thoughts, thoughts

Thursday, April 25, 2013

let it go. this is life Posted at April 25, 2013 4 comments (+)

life is not just so simple as we think. maybe we just have fun for while but afterward we need to go back in reality. this is just ironic and redundant on my part. maybe i'm too scared to step forward to make move for myself. most of the time i'm just being lazy to do those goal, so can't blame anyone if i just stuck here alone.

"nakakabaliw, nakakatakot, at mukhang tanga lang ang pakiramdam pag alam mong paranoid ka na sa lahat ng bagay." yung takot ka kasi alam mong sooner or later mag isa ka na lang at di mo namamalayan na wala na pala sila. iniisip ko kung kailan ako magsisimula para masimulan yung goal ko. mag kakaroon lang ako ng drive pag alam kong may aalis na or makakaramdam ako ng depression, saka ko lang maiisip na "kailangan ko din palang umalis o gumawa ng paraan para di maiwan kung nasaan man ako ngayon" ugaling di ko maiwan. eventually makalipas lang ilang araw, makakalimot uli ako na parang walang nangyari" (this is so Emo >_<)

~ now i'm still enjoying life :) so kaya nakalimot ako bigla na kailangan ko palang mag step forward. and now i'm being alarmed again for some reason O_O oh life! why you so hard. hahaha anyway i'll just let it go and go for the flow. i know life won't be so easy anymore and i need to deal with it.

Labels: friendship, future, life, random

Friday, December 28, 2012

25 random things about myself Posted at December 28, 2012 5 comments (+)

I've been tagged by new blogger friend Apriil. so i need to post 25 random things about my self. well i'm actually hate to do this because i'm "lazy head" hahaha. well since it's sound interesting i'll share some of my randomness.

here the rules:

once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note, with 25 list of anything random about you. It can be a fact, a habit, a goal, or just anything else under the sun. Next, tag 5 people you want to know more, plus the person who tagged you. Game? Here goes mine..

uno. i'm not gay :) well defensive because people might think that i'm gay.

dos. vanity is my favorite sin.

tres. i hate pimples as they like my face. haha *mortal enemy

cuatro. i really love cats.

cinco. i had a lot of gal bestfriends than having a guy bestfriends. & i love them as they love me.

seis. i hate bullies

siete. mangoes is my favorite fruits. all the sour stuff** i think :D

ocho. frustrated singer

nueve.i love Photoshop

diez. camera whore

once. i do love korean drama and kpop

doce. i like anime and i wanna try cosplay. hihi

trece. i crash and fall in love but my heart broke apart. but now i'm happy being alone

~~(still longing for someone)~~ no more bitterness. i've realized that i deserve better. hihi someone who actually love me unconditionally.

catorce. i can't live without TV. i really like those TV dramas with revenge soapopera*

quince. dreamer and believer.

diez y seis. hindi kami mayaman hahahaha. sakto lang** but still grateful :)

diez y siete. i love nature. so i want to travel the whole Philippines and the whole world. captures those breathtaking scene because its a priceless things about life. ~~Photography~~

diez y ocho. i'm always nice and i tried to smile although sometimes i feel bad about certain things. well its not being fake or whatever. for me that's being matured to understand anything.

diez y nueve. sleeping is my escape

veinte. i hate confrontation

veinte y uno. color blue is my favorite shade.

veinte y dos. i love chix hihi :D

veinte y tres. green joke

veinte y cuatro. i hate my mom when she's start shouting and blaming for something. badvibes** . but sometimes parents didn't know how bad we feel when they start talking for something we don't mean it. hahaha but we still love her

veinte y cinco. i hate numbers. but i really love money hahaha

here you go. my 25 random things about myself. What's yours? ace kaye bea hann dhia

thank you apriil for tagging me.

Labels: facts, random, tagged

Thursday, December 27, 2012

good day :) Posted at December 27, 2012 3 comments (+)

along the way, there's a lot of people who actually changed you to be a better person or change you to be weak and feel bad about yourself. but it's a matter of choice of what will you choose between the two ways, well its better to see your self to do those hard times and choose to be a better person in the end of the day. :)

goodvibes**

Labels: idea, random

Tuesday, October 23, 2012

truth can hurts Posted at October 23, 2012 3 comments (+)

There’s something that caught my attention.

"Sometimes you can found happiness to the things you become sad. Because things can easily change and there is always a point of view that can actually change you to be more stronger and happy enough"

it's a bitter sweet reality. live happily and less complicated.

Labels: random, reality

Saturday, October 13, 2012

different story Posted at October 13, 2012 2 comments (+)

Here is a lot of random story within this week J

So I been trying to hide from carene since Monday, you know I’m just trying to make some space bet. Us (this is regarding to a judgement issue or should I say A FRIENDSHIP issue) anyway like what I said. Keeping that line between us is so hard on my part. One thing it is because we are teammates. So every day I always see her in the office and every morning I help her on the reception area. lalo na kung may event almost whole day I was on her side tracking those name and answering those annoying phone calls. Well we’re still good friends after all but still I’m on the process of healing (drama lang haha J)

And every time I read that text msg from her. I felt so wasted, and pity for myself because I don’t deserve it . all I want is to make her safe. And my intention is to keep on her mind that we are all worried for her. Well past is past :D time to forget it.

However, my point is. Is how hard to make some excuses just to avoid her. Hahaha well at least 1 week na di kami sabay umuwi, making those lies just not to wait her haha sweet revenge right. those times that she does the same things with me, hanging me alone without asking me that she can’t go with me because she need to do something with her bf, or hanging out with her friends. As simple as to ask me about that.. well no need to explain that things with me :D anyway no reason for me to get mad. Maybe I’m reacting too much but still im hurt.

Another story, I have a workmate that has a talent when it comes to handicraft. So nice right. He is a gay. Well I don’t have any issue about them. Those gay people are very talented and very artistic in some ways. joebent is very nice guy. i hope the best for him and for his family.

there's more. One of my workmate shares her secret to me,. I feel so flattered being trusted by someone you totally don’t know: D

(well I already know that secret because her friends told us her secret, well I know that is not intentional it just happened that some brought up some topic that related to her secret, so unconsciously that secret revealed) well my responsibility is to keep it secret. How I wish to restrain myself not tell to anyone. PROMISE J

"I like when you learn a secret about somebody, because then you look at the things they say and do in the light of that secret. You understand them a little more and why they are the way they are."

Labels: daily, friendship, random, secret, work

Sunday, September 23, 2012

random post : daily experience Posted at September 23, 2012 4 comments (+)

Tired about arguing. so sometimes I just ignore it. Some people don’t understand it. They keep me pushing to my limit until I clash. But as time goes by I just want to stay calm and put myself out of the pressure. My technique is just counting 1 until 10 and take a deep breath. Then I do clearing my throat because I want to stop the feeling of crying or feeling to explode the angry inside of me.

And I don’t understand why other people say something about other people or they want to tell something to someone but not directly to the person they want to tell . “Nagpaparinig” I don’t get it the logic behind that action because it’s so stupid.

It’s because they want to prove that I’m wrong and it’s my fault?. “kung kasalanan ko, inaamin ko naman ee, and I’ll take the responsibility of it.” I do say sorry if it’s my fault, even though it’s not me, I ‘ll keep saying sorry because i just want to have the guilt free feelings.

--nakaka asar lang yung pakiramdam na ikaw yung pinariringgan kasi alam mo na kasalanan mo din kasi, pero di naman tama yung way para ipaalam na kasalanan mo. Di naman lahat perpect ee. Akong yung taong tumatahimik lang pag masyado na akong na ooff . di naman ako pikon. Hanggat maari sasakyan ko lahat ng joke kahit minsan offensive na on my part. But still I just keep trying to put everything on a brighter side.

Well I’m just aiming for a peaceful and stressed free life . mukhang Malabo yun J everyday may mga bagong stressor, sana sooner or later maging ok lahat ng bagay. Susubukan kong maging maayos at masaya araw araw J

Labels: accenture, fault, perpect, problem, random, tagalog

Friday, September 21, 2012

Rebound love Posted at September 21, 2012 0 comments (+)

One of my former college friends chat me thru facebook. Well she’s my crush J I don’t know I find her cute and pretty. Anyway we chat, she is the first who tried to reach me. Then she asked me how’s my life and I answered that I’m ok blah blah blah…

And then she asked me about career and stuff.. Then suddenly she asked me what is my number then I give it to her. And vice versa I also asked her number.. and then she told me to text her and I told her that I don’t have load and i'm so lazy about texting hahahaha J

And were continuing chatting blah blah blah… hehehe and then she about to asked me about my love life. And I answered that I don’t have girlfriend and even dating to anyone. Then I asked her too. and she start to tell her love story,Then she’s been broken hearted for a year ( I guess). I know where was going this conversation. Hahaha

Ang pogi lang ( paniniwala ko) J ewan ko ba parang wala ako sa mood makipag flirt online. Pero alam ko na gusto nia makipag kita kasi tinatanong nia ako kung may lakad ba daw ako, so I make some ally by ( assuming T.T) Hay. I don’t know I’m so lazy doing those things. Hahaha or maybe I’m not ready to fall inlove haha. And I think if ever we meet, maybe she might be disappointed about my face. I got so much pimple and my face so wasted. L

Hanggang flirt lang pero serious love affair di pa ako ready L I don’t know. Maybe I too scared to hurt or ~~just a rebound love~~. the last time i checked her profile, i think she's already ok with her boyfriend. well so happy for her.

~why people do some moves when they're brokenhearted. looking for someone who can ease the pain. NO FOR REBOUND LOVE

Labels: love, random, rebound love

Saturday, September 15, 2012

Random Question Posted at September 15, 2012 0 comments (+)

I got Random question coming from a friend. She asked me if there is a chance that I think to have someone special or girlfriend because I’ve been so lonely and alone for so long, well since then hahaha lol.

Anyway, and I answered like this, “minsan iniisip ko din yan. Xempre minsan naiisip ko na malungkot yung mag isa ka lang sa lahat ng bagay, yung tipong wala kang karamay, dati nga pati mga kaibigan kong mg bf pinagseselosan ko. Yung tipong dati may time kami mag bonding pero ngayon xempre priority na nila yung mga bf nila, hahahaha (bestfriend no need to mention nahihiya ako ). Well self-pity forever. I just want to spend my time to someone I truly love. I hope Makita ko na sya hahahaha nagmamadali lang.

ayaw ko naman tumanda mag isa >,< (hala napaparanoid na ako)~

well wala di ko pa-talaga naiisip yung ganung bagay, kasi ang dami kong dapat unahin. nan jan lang naman yan. dadating kung dadating. no more rebound love. things become more complicated if you insist.

Labels: bitter, emo, friend, love, question, random

Sunday, August 12, 2012

bestfriends Posted at August 12, 2012 0 comments (+)

When I was on my college days in Fatima, at first I’m kind of scared and nervous because that is my first time to go out on my comfort zone. and I’m just starting to make my new journey as student, freshman, teenager, and for my future.

All the things on my college days are all brand new for me. New faces, environment, time, places, perspective, point of view and school. Honestly, there are some questions on my mind that time. What if I failed this? Can I afford to have back subjects? Or what if I can’t do this? I am so weak and alone that time and i don’t have even the

courage to face everything alone.

The time goes by. And I met some friends and company along the way. The true friendships last since day one with Gerlyn and Athena. J Way back on that moment, I don’t have any clue if that friendship could be forever or work on us. But to today, I must say that friendships are still intact even though sometimes we’re not perfect to understand each other but still we love each other. That is our friendship J

Gerlyn is a kind of girl that strong outside but deep inside she’s a typical girl that soft and sweet (sometimes J) I know that she is longing for someone that could love her purely and endlessly. I believed that she has a romantic side in spite of her boyish attitude and gesture. And I think that Romantic side is influenced of those novel books that she red. My first impression to her is like a witty and geek girl on the class. Braided hair, simple shirt and jeans. That is how she looks for our first meeting. As far as I remembered I am the one who asked her name first on our chemistry class then she answered me in ENGLISH. Hahahaha that time I was kind of shock and I am about to asked myself that girl is so smart hahaha funny right? Well not usual for me to talk to me in English that time. Moreover, I am not wrong this chick is indeed SMART . We knew each other for almost 5 years, which is enough to love and understand her for all dramas she had.

i wanna hug her >,<

Athena is my BESTFRIEND and my little big sister :3 we been together for so long time. First Impression is just a shy and weird girl on wall. Short/dry hair, skinny and petite body. And I don’t even imagined that we will be a good friend hehe. but to today she looks much better than before.

Magkasama kami sa duty. Kung pwede mag kasama sa lahat ng activities sa school. Sa loob ng ilang taon mag-kasama kami nyan day and night. All throughout kami mag kakampi nyan through thick and thin. Sabay mag review at nag tutulungan pag kinakailangan.

I love this chick J she makes me feel that I’m worth to love as a person even though we’re not biologically siblings, she treated me as her brother and she shows me that even stranger could find family not by blood but family by heart. J kahit kailan di ako pinag damutan nyan, tinanggap na parang kapatid. Natutulog na magkatabi at tinuruan ng mga bagay na di ko alam. Nasasabihan ko ng mga problema ko at ni minsan di ako hinusgahan nyan.tinatama at sinasabihan ako kung may mali sa akin. May mga bagay siguro kaming di pinag kakasunduan pero alam ko na naman I handle yun mga ganung bagay. I mean gets ko na ugali nyan hahaha, yung tipong di maintindihan ng iba pero ako gets ko na hahaha J

Nalulungkot lang ako, kasi uuwi na xa sa Marikina. Di na xa magdodorm dito sa valenzuela. Nakakamiss lang yung bonding namin. Lately we are kinda busy for our own stuff kaya wala din time mag hang out.

No matter what, I would always love these two chicks! J

Labels: bestfriends, forever, personal, random

Friday, August 10, 2012

isn't your dream Posted at August 10, 2012 0 comments (+)

Well I’m talking to myself right now. Actually I felt so lonely and alone lately for these past few days. It’s all about my career. Very frustrating on my part because I really don’t know what things I should need to prioritize. Being a nurse is my ultimate dream and I took it for almost 5 years just to fulfil that dream. Life is ironic. Now I am a Registered Nurse since 2010 and I have been working to BPO Company as admin staff for almost 1year. It is like having money but I already had a license on my pocket. It is as you have choice to what you really want and what you really need.

However, life is as complicated as we expected. Like my situation right now, as much I want to pursue my dream or goal but as of now my priority is my family and our financially security. So much, sacrifice if I insist to continue my goal to be a nurse although it is so easy to practice my profession. SEMINAR and VOLUNTEER, work hard but no pay? This is what you called devotion and dedication but for my situation right now, I need to be selfish to myself. I need to weight everything that is between my family and my career.

Maybe someday I will be a better nurse. I had lot of experienced that I need just to be competitive. In addition, I hope that someday I will be successful as what I wish.

Labels: nurse, personal, random

Thursday, August 9, 2012

I'm being bullied Posted at August 09, 2012 0 comments (+)

I have been sensitive lately. Secretly I have been hurt and offended by my friend. I do not know if I reacted so much. I know myself why I felt this. I tried to understand people how they treat other people or how they treated me. I believed that as much as possible I want to be bubbly and polite person to anyone. I know that is too good to be true but I love people to see me as good as angel J

For a guy, that is not usual -- to be soft spoken, to be friends with so much girls J and shy and soft not like other man. And I admit it that I’m vain, soft spoken and I had a lot of girlfriend but not to the point that to be considered as a gay T.T some people get me wrong and think that I’m gay L ( I feel depressed right now) ever since that is my problem. When i was a child and during my early adolescence days I been always being bullied and teased. Since then I always choose to be alone and choose people to get along. My childhood memories are a nightmare for me. Yes I’ve been traumatize and no one knows that. Di ko nga alam kung paano ko kinaya kung early stage ng buhay ko J well i think that is my personality to easily cope up to everything.

But you know, it’s very tiring to explain everything about myself\yourself as if they understand me the way I want everyone understand me. One time my friend teased me online. and I felt so bad, this scenario is usual thing for me. Nevertheless, I am still being offended. There is a time that my former workmate teased me online and that time I’ve been so much irritated to her so I just blocked here on my page J hehehe as far as remembered she always teased me in front of other people. That is unprofessional right? You do not need to make fun of other people just to claim the credit. One thing more, one of my high school friend also teased me online, I post a photo album online then he dropped a comment on it. You don’t believed it that he post this “baklang bakla ah haha” well after that i blocked him also J as simple as that. Di ko sya kailangan Kapal nya mas pogi kasi ako. Muka syang sandokJ muka pang may tuberculosis hehe :3 sorry for the word, I’m just being pissed off.

Well you cannot please people. They always want you the best but actually, there are not. I don’t have any bad impression or experienced to a gay \bisexual person. Actually there are people have a good personality, mood and happy attitude. But the fact that some stupid people around me always teased me, make fun of me and degrading me just to satisfy their feelings.

For the record, I am not a gay. Maybe I am too vain and soft for the usual man but it doesn’t mean that I’m gay and stuff. But like what I said earlier I’m still hurting when there’s someone teased me out of nowhere. But so much pain when that someone is your close friends or someone that really mean to you. That feeling is like being betrayed by someone you love or feelings that someone will stub you behind your back. Because for me , I just love those people around me like my family and I invest so much trust for them. I don’t know maybe I’m too much attached to those people and easily get hurt. I know its sound ridiculous hehehe. That is my point of view and I don’t care if people don’t get it J. I think I need to be more broadminded and understand them well J ako na lang iintindi sa kanila, yun lang naman yung solution dun. Maybe I try to be more masculine enough J

Labels: me, personal, random

Sunday, July 29, 2012

Posted at July 29, 2012 0 comments (+)

i always wait for someone who make promise with me, that she always be in my side no matter what. now her prince try to find his princess.this is the journey of happy ending .

Labels: love, promise, random

Saturday, July 28, 2012

super duper OK :) Posted at July 28, 2012 0 comments (+)

lately superduper dami ng mga iniisip kong problema~ minsan na iisip kong parang unfair ng problema. ang gulo kaya kung di mo alam kung anu uunahin mong aayusin. fake smile is always useful when you're feeling down. pag naka ngiti ka it doesnt mean na masaya ka inside, gusto mo lng ngumuti at tumawa para kahit paano ma relief yung pakiramdam na nalulungkot or yung mixed emotion na meron ka. that is the way how i cope up. anyway masayahin naman akong tao eh :) anyway ayaw ko din naman masyadong madepressed kung anu man yung nararamdaman ko. sabi ng kaibigan ko sa work : ~~mienand:~~ "Wag mong problemahin ang problema, kinabukasan problema pa rin yan." :) napaka inspiring diba? haha. well na-interpret ko naman yan ng maayus. "siguro, tama xa.kung iisipin mo maghapon at maiinis ka lang the whole day, mapapagod ka lang. bakit di na lang mag relax. at isipin ng dahandahan kung anu yung pwedeng solusyon :) " hmmm. tama yung qoute na nabasa ko. think positive before you name it as negative. super goodvibes lang diba:)

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blog Posted at July 28, 2012 0 comments (+)

layout done :) super excited to start this new blog.. sana mapanindigan ko xa ng matagal. hala ang dami kong gustong ipost :3 cant wait hihihi :)

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