life is not just so simple as we think. maybe we just have fun for while but afterward we need to go back in  reality. this is just ironic and redundant on my part. maybe i'm too scared to step forward to make move for myself. most of the time i'm just being lazy to do those goal, so can't blame anyone if i just stuck here alone.

"nakakabaliw, nakakatakot, at mukhang tanga lang ang pakiramdam pag alam mong paranoid ka na sa lahat ng bagay." yung takot ka kasi alam mong sooner or later mag isa ka na lang at di mo namamalayan na wala na pala sila. iniisip ko kung kailan ako magsisimula para masimulan yung goal ko. mag kakaroon lang ako ng drive pag alam kong may aalis na or makakaramdam ako ng depression, saka ko lang maiisip na "kailangan ko din palang umalis o gumawa ng paraan para di maiwan kung nasaan man ako ngayon"  ugaling di ko maiwan. eventually makalipas lang ilang araw, makakalimot uli ako na parang walang nangyari" (this is so Emo >_<)

~ now i'm still enjoying life :) so kaya nakalimot ako bigla na kailangan ko palang mag step forward. and now i'm being alarmed again for some reason O_O oh life! why you so hard. hahaha anyway i'll just let it go and go for the flow. i know life won't be so easy anymore and i need to deal with it.