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Tuesday, January 12, 2016

2016 Posted at January 12, 2016 1 comments (+)

Hello there! and hello 2016 - so much expectation this year, a lot of wishes, goals, and dreams. Ang dami kong ineexpect this year. Makapag travel, makahanap ng ibang work, more hook-ups hahaha joke. but seriously yung relationship na pwde kong itressure. well 2016 na what's new hahaha. but I feel it, soon hahahaha, the question is how soon? hahaha okay let's stop this.

lately sobra akong interested sa mga tutorial sa youtube, may napanuod akong vlog about traveling and I'm dying bacause I'm supposed to be there hahaha joke. seriously gusto ko gawin yung mag travel from now on. yung pakiramdam na free ka and you have free mind to explore everything. free soul and free life kahit saglit lang makawala ka sa problema mo. how i wish to live in a worry less world. free of anything that can stress me. but that world doesn't exist at all :) bacause life is useless without problems. that's my mantra

this year I will try to be a good person as I can. no more hate, hatred, envy, and I want to be happy. pero parang ang hirap panindigan hahahaha. I just noticed when I get older that I become more sensitive and concern about my life. is this a mid-life crisis? haha is that too early for me? :) hahaha. like what I want to be this year, sometimes it's so hard to be that person, thou that changes are for your own maturity and well-being as a Individual. okay this is me talking about changes haha? Anyway, minsan di ako makaramdam ng contentment and I'm guilty because I can't see how blessed I am. that's the things that I need to working on. also need to stop comparing myself to other people. stop procrastinate everything, do it as soon as possible and be punctual. at this Aged, I had a lot of things inside me that I need to pay attention, bad habits, bad attitude and everything about me that need changes. should I stop wishing things that everything that I see to other people are supposed to be me? wishing that I have what they have, who they are and everything they have experience are maybe me and should be me because I deserved it too? I'm too greedy not to feel happy for other persons :( and I'm not happy because this is me living on that attitude and I want to change it. yes because it's 2016 and everyone has been changing already. I'm not saying that I need to change because they're changing. I want to change for my own benefits and be a better person. when I'm able to be happy and accept what I have, I think that's the time that I can be contented and don't feel anything toward other people.

Labels: changes, life, me, new year, reality, reflection

Sunday, March 22, 2015

Back again :) Posted at March 22, 2015 0 comments (+)

yes! I'm back after a long long time for not posting here because I'm quite busy for the past few months and i don't have lappy. now looking forward for a lot of experience, feelings, and story that i want share with you. or should i say to be part of my history ( in case that there none of you would be interested hahaha *just kidding)

Labels: Blog, me, note

Tuesday, November 12, 2013

Random thoughts Posted at November 12, 2013 6 comments (+)

Random thoughts~

*things that should remain untold or other wise you keep it to your self and share to the most trusted people around you. feel free for burden for sometimes.

*everything can changed and people also changed - the least you can do is to accept that everything won't be the same.

*I actually feel alone as always and how often i denied it, but the fact is - i'm really alone and empty.

*i smile and be happy, thou everything seems difficult and hard for me. i just learned how to appreciate things.

*there's no such perfect life.

*who's the lucky one, the one with good life since then or the one who always tried to be good enough

*at least , we need to value LIFE and things that we have. and avoid compunction because you've never done those things that you need to do.

*life would be unfair sometimes and you feel this way because bad things happened to you, and you actually asked yourself this one. and you just feel that this messed would stay forever.

*I PUT GOD FIRST.

*there's a things that you want to stop it but you end up to do it again :| how ironic

*May mga taong nakakapikon -_- pero wala akong magawa kundi *i murder them back on my mind hihi

*those things i want and i can't do anything but just to think of it until a fall asleep.

*i want to scream.

*i miss my old friends and i don't know if they miss me the way i miss them. *winkk

*i tried to be a better person.

*i always want to learn something new.

*I'm not contented and i tried to strike good fortune.

Labels: life, me, random thoughts

Sunday, December 16, 2012

my birthday Posted at December 16, 2012 5 comments (+)

YES! my birthday today :) well i'll expect nothing hahaha as daily routine. masaya lang ako dun sa mga nakaalala in advanced. si athena na maya't maya ang text nag ccount down ata para sa pagtanda ko. hahaha si ace na may balak mag bigay ng gift. ni reveal agad tinanong pa ako kung anu gusto ko at may certain amount pa hahaha. phone calls na di ko ineexpect from gerlyn ang sweet right?** simple things but it makes me feel happy and special hahaha. si bestfriend jamie may pahabol pang phone call for me.

yun. wala naman akong handa. nakakahiya dun sa mga nagexpect pero next time na lang :) mejo tight lang ang budget lately. so abala lang ako kahapon actually nung saturday with abby :) well i'm doing some steps for better life lol :) anyway happy naman ako sa mga nag greet sa Facebook.

so! for my 23rd years of existence, my life still boring. hahaha given the chance of having a hard time sometimes nakakayanan ko naman lagpasan. so hopefully makaya ko pa for the next 20 years or more.

"susubukan kong maging masaya araw araw. more happiness and less of drama" well sana magawa ko yung less of drama. although alam ko na marami akong drama sa buhay hahaha anyway feel better to enjoy the rest of the month. gusto ko matapos yung taon na walang sama ng loob. kaya less talk less mistake :)

Labels: birthday, me

Saturday, October 13, 2012

mustache Posted at October 13, 2012 0 comments (+)

~My love for you is like a mustache. No matter how hard you try to shave it .. It’ll grows back much thicker and stronger than it was.

Labels: love, me, mustache, picture

Saturday, September 29, 2012

photography Posted at September 29, 2012 7 comments (+)

Photograph by me

Athena let me use her prof. camera for almost 1 week. i’m so happy because at least I fulfilled my dream to be a photographer in spite in a short time. hehehe.

thank you athena for letting me use your cam.

Labels: dreams, DSLR, me, personal, photography

Friday, September 21, 2012

my life. Posted at September 21, 2012 0 comments (+)

I don’t know, I just being frustrated about everything happened in my life. Oh my god, here I am again paranoid about life. Errr T.T I hate this feelings. Sometimes this thing makes me tired and hanging for something I don’t even know. Complaining about everything why this happening to me. Self-pity again.

I should be happy because I have work. However, deep inside im not happy or even enjoying those things because I know that I don’t deserved that. Scanning, printing, receptionist and those admin tasks. I know some people around me think that I’m not good enough to do some higher task. That is the frustrating part about my life.

The funny part is I know that I can’t , but if you give a chance to improve or to do it well I know I can do that. Just a matter of time J anyway I know that I’m better hehe .

(lesson: don’t let yourself down)

Hay I’m just think about resigning or what. Because i’m no longer happy about working environment and I need space between us. I’m talking about to a friend. (u know who) but still I’m enjoying the companion of my friends there. Hay, I don’t know.. maybe I need to find new job before making some decision. J Thinking about that is giving me a headache and a heart break as well >,< that could be the hardest part about making a new life after all. I know how hard that is. NAPAGDAANAN KO NA YAN. Looking for a job is most difficult part mentally,

emotionally, financially and even spiritually because you need a strong faith just to overcome those hard times. I could still remember those times when I was looking for a job before. Oh my god! @_@ I don’t want to imagine it again and even to experience it again L

Life is so complicated. Full of challenges, and our duty is how we deal to it. Pls. I need goodvibes and positivity J anyway I’m still lucky even though there are some shit thing happening in my life. Thank you lord I have friends, best friends and family J

Labels: life, me, problem

Thursday, August 9, 2012

I'm being bullied Posted at August 09, 2012 0 comments (+)

I have been sensitive lately. Secretly I have been hurt and offended by my friend. I do not know if I reacted so much. I know myself why I felt this. I tried to understand people how they treat other people or how they treated me. I believed that as much as possible I want to be bubbly and polite person to anyone. I know that is too good to be true but I love people to see me as good as angel J

For a guy, that is not usual -- to be soft spoken, to be friends with so much girls J and shy and soft not like other man. And I admit it that I’m vain, soft spoken and I had a lot of girlfriend but not to the point that to be considered as a gay T.T some people get me wrong and think that I’m gay L ( I feel depressed right now) ever since that is my problem. When i was a child and during my early adolescence days I been always being bullied and teased. Since then I always choose to be alone and choose people to get along. My childhood memories are a nightmare for me. Yes I’ve been traumatize and no one knows that. Di ko nga alam kung paano ko kinaya kung early stage ng buhay ko J well i think that is my personality to easily cope up to everything.

But you know, it’s very tiring to explain everything about myself\yourself as if they understand me the way I want everyone understand me. One time my friend teased me online. and I felt so bad, this scenario is usual thing for me. Nevertheless, I am still being offended. There is a time that my former workmate teased me online and that time I’ve been so much irritated to her so I just blocked here on my page J hehehe as far as remembered she always teased me in front of other people. That is unprofessional right? You do not need to make fun of other people just to claim the credit. One thing more, one of my high school friend also teased me online, I post a photo album online then he dropped a comment on it. You don’t believed it that he post this “baklang bakla ah haha” well after that i blocked him also J as simple as that. Di ko sya kailangan Kapal nya mas pogi kasi ako. Muka syang sandokJ muka pang may tuberculosis hehe :3 sorry for the word, I’m just being pissed off.

Well you cannot please people. They always want you the best but actually, there are not. I don’t have any bad impression or experienced to a gay \bisexual person. Actually there are people have a good personality, mood and happy attitude. But the fact that some stupid people around me always teased me, make fun of me and degrading me just to satisfy their feelings.

For the record, I am not a gay. Maybe I am too vain and soft for the usual man but it doesn’t mean that I’m gay and stuff. But like what I said earlier I’m still hurting when there’s someone teased me out of nowhere. But so much pain when that someone is your close friends or someone that really mean to you. That feeling is like being betrayed by someone you love or feelings that someone will stub you behind your back. Because for me , I just love those people around me like my family and I invest so much trust for them. I don’t know maybe I’m too much attached to those people and easily get hurt. I know its sound ridiculous hehehe. That is my point of view and I don’t care if people don’t get it J. I think I need to be more broadminded and understand them well J ako na lang iintindi sa kanila, yun lang naman yung solution dun. Maybe I try to be more masculine enough J

Labels: me, personal, random