Maybe that is why it stays hidden. Not everything makes sense once spoken out loud.

It feels sad in a quiet way because deep down, it was never meant to last. Just two people crossing paths for a short moment, disconnected from their usual reality, finding comfort in something temporary. Then life continues like normal, but something still lingers after.

The weirdest part is realizing how easy it still is to feel attached despite age, experience, and everything already learned the hard way. Thought certain feelings would become easier to control by now, but apparently not. Some people just arrive unexpectedly and leave traces behind without even trying.

Maybe not every connection is supposed to become something permanent. Some are only meant to remind that even the smallest moments can still make the heart feel a little less empty for a while.

Labels: random thoughts, stranger

 This isn’t my personal experience, but it resonates with me how strange and powerful words can be. I’ve known this person for a few years. While we don’t have a deep connection as friends, I got used to talking to him, mostly through chat. He’s a bit odd, sometimes even seeming erratic, and I’ve caught myself thinking he might have some kind of personality disorder.

The way he interacts with others and the words he uses are often inappropriate and unsettling. It’s just… strange.

I’ve even tried giving him advice on how to act and treat people properly, but he insists on doing things his own way. That’s his problem—he’s stubborn. Despite his age, he’s still fearful of certain things and has a lot of personal inhibitions.

Recently, we had what I thought was a good conversation, but looking back, maybe not. He was just laid off from his job after working at the company for seven years, and I could tell he was devastated. But honestly, he brought it on himself. He’s been toxic at work, constantly talking nonsense, using derogatory language, and provoking others. When I asked him about it, he just said he was “being himself.” I couldn’t help but think, “Seriously, what the hell?”

I’ve always given him advice, but I don’t think he ever really takes it in. Now, he's planning to go to Dubai because he has no other option, but before all this, he was full of himself—constantly telling everyone he was ready to quit anytime, even cursing the company. What happened to him now feels like pure karma, needless to say. He used to show off, bragging about his thousands of dollars, completely absorbed in his own ego. I can only hope he’s learned something from all this, though I doubt it.

The ironic part is that he’s going to Dubai to try to get back with his ex. She dumped him because he couldn't make the move to Dubai on his own, and I get it—he didn’t take the risk for her, so honestly, he deserved to be dumped in the first place. Now he’s trying to fix things, but it’s hard to say if he’s realized his mistakes.

Taking this chance to be with his ex seems like a red flag. I even asked him why he didn’t take the chance earlier, and he finally admitted that he felt insecure. Her family is well-established, and he felt like he didn’t measure up because of where he is in life.

I guess I can understand him on that point, but I told him it doesn’t really matter. The important thing is that the girl was willing to be with him. His ego, though, seems bigger than his intentions, and that’s what makes the whole situation so doubtful. It seems like he’s not really into her; he’s more excited about the idea of going to Dubai and is using that as an opportunity. The situation isn’t what it appears—he’s not going there with the true intention of being with her. He’s more in love with the convenience of it all than with the person herself.

Labels: life, people, story, stranger

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